My favorite app for staying active while traveling

The countdown is officially on! We are leaving for Spain in 3 days and I am getting more and more excited each day. Whenever I travel, there is always one thing that gives me a little bit of anxiety. That is, how and what am I going to do to workout.

Exercise has been a coping mechanism for me ever since I was in high school. When I was a freshman in high school, I had an eating disorder. There was so much going on in my life, limiting how much I ate and exercising were the only things I felt I had control over. So, I started to lose weight and exercise excessively. Even with all of my weight loss, I was never satisfied with how I looked. I couldn’t see the harm I was causing my body.

When I left for college, I gained the “freshman 15” and I slowly began to realize the damage I was doing not only to my physical self, but also my mental self. Although I was feeling ashamed for gaining this weight, gaining this weight forced me to take a step back and change how I treat my body.

It took me about 4 years to change my behavior. I forced myself to stop counting calories and stepping on the scale each day. I have also become better about not making myself feel guilty for skipping a day at the gym. To this day, I am working on training my mind to enjoy exercise and movement for the way it makes me feel, not the weight it can allow me to lose.

A year ago I discovered a fitness app, called Aaptiv. This app has really helped me change the way I think about working out. There are so many different types of workouts, such as, yoga, stretching, treadmill, strength training and stairclimber, it is almost impossible not to mix it up. Before I would spend all of my time on the treadmill. Now, with Aaptiv, I can easily try new things, even when I am traveling.


One of my favorite categories is yoga. I have been practicing yoga on and off for many years. The movement of yoga always makes me feel centered. There is something so calming about just lying on your yoga mat. For me, it is a safe place. I rarely judge myself on my abilities on the mat, rather I feel proud of what my body can accomplish.

The app allows you to tailor each workout to your ability, music preference and duration. I love being able to unroll my mat at home or on the go and take a 20 minute yoga class.

Since graduating college, moving to a new city, and starting to work full time, there have been very few times when I have genuinely felt calm. This past year has been filled with chaos and starting to practice yoga again has helped me find just a few minutes of stillness.

Using Aaptiv while I am traveling has been a major game changer. Since I can take it anywhere with me, I can worry less about how I am going to fit a workout in and focus more on enjoying our trip.









3 Tips for tackling that feeling of being stuck in life




A lot of what I have been talking about on Taking Back Taylor has to do with me and my personal growth. Today I wanted to switch my focus and talk about other people’s growth. Since I have graduated from college, watching other people grow, whether it be in their personal life or professional career has been a struggle for me. I always feel as though my life is standing still, while other’s lives are charging full speed ahead. I feel that I have encountered numerous road blocks along this journey called adulthood, while other’s have seamlessly transitioned in their new roles.

I constantly feel stuck and honestly, sometimes I can’t feel proud and happy for my friends or family members who are achieving great things. I am just too discouraged. I can’t find the energy within me to congratulate them or wish them good luck. This feeling right here is one that I hate most of all. A cloud of guilt comes over me when I can’t show support to the people who love me most.

One example of this has been evident in the past few weeks of my life. Daniel and I have lived together for over two years and have gone through a ton, like most couples have. Surviving college and moving across the country has been nothing compared to the last couple months. I have been stuck in a rut, while Daniel has been soaring, specifically in his career. He has grown tremendously in his position and has taken on so many new and exciting responsibilities. Now I know I should be feeling excited and proud but, this has not been the case. All of these great changes Daniel is experiencing has left me feeling more scared and filled with anxiety than ever before.

The hardest part about this situation is that this is not how I want to feel. I don’t want to feel scared or anxious. I want to feel excited and proud. Recently, I have been working on creating this change. Although I don’t have the quick fix for this problem, here are a few tips that have been working for me:

  1. Saying the words, “I am proud of you” to my friend or family member. Even though this is sometimes almost impossible for me to get out, I know this is how I truly feel underneath all of my negative thoughts.
  2. Acting kindly and politely to everyone I come in contact with. When things aren’t going the way I had hoped, I try to take a step back and reflect on my actions. I ask myself, have I been putting out positive energy? Usually, the answer is no. My fix is to be a little nicer to the people around me. Smile to the person in the elevator next to you, hold the door for the person behind you, or offer a hand to someone. If I don’t give off positive energy than how can I expect it in return?
  3. Realizing that this is a part of your journey. You will not be here forever. This last part is the hardest for me. When I feel stuck, I convince myself that I will be here forever. In times like these, I tell myself the following: I got myself here so I can get myself out of here.


Take Back Tuesday (one day late…)

What I am about to tell you is proof that timing is everything, seriously EVERYTHING! Right before I had left my job a few weeks ago, I reached out to someone on LinkedIn about about a job that I was interested  in. Networking on LinkedIn is a technique I learned from Daniel (that’s how he got the job he has today). The lady responded the next day and said she would love to set-up time for an interview. From there, I spoke with the rest of the team. All of this happened in a matter of about a week and things could not have gone better. Following the final round of interviews two weeks ago, communication from my contact quickly dropped off. I felt confused and discouraged. I didn’t understand how I could go from constant communication and feeling as though I was the right fit to nothing at all.

The last two weeks, I have been on edge and extremely anxious. I was so hurt by how things were going. It took me about 10 days to even be able to start to think about moving on. I now had to force myself to look at other positions and give up on the one I wanted so badly. I came up with a plan and decided to start studying for the GRE. I have always played with the idea of going back to school to get my masters in education and this would be a great time to start. I began looking at schools and preparing for the application process. I never felt sure that I was making the right decision but I knew I had to move on.

Yesterday marked two weeks since my last interview and I had truly given up all hope that landing this position was in my future.

Now for the reason why this post is a day late: It was 3 o’clock in the afternoon yesterday and I was lying on the sofa, talking to my dad on the phone. We were discussing my options and what steps I should start to think about taking. The position I interviewed for came up in discussion, as I still couldn’t shake it and he said to me, “Look at it this way – if you get the position now timing will be so much better than if you had received an offer two weeks ago.” He was right. We are going to Spain in two weeks and starting a new job a week ago wouldn’t have been great timing. I hung up the phone, not thinking twice about what he said, and got ready to run some errands. Within three minutes, my phone rang. It was them. I grabbed my notebook and answered the call. I GOT THE JOB!

These last two weeks have proved the importance of timing. I have the most difficult time accepting this idea. I always want things to happen on my timeline but what I have to learn is that maybe my timeline isn’t always right. I don’t know about you but I believe that everything in life happens for a reason, even when I don’t want to. Its what makes you you and me me. Having to wait two weeks for an answer was part of my plan and it has helped shape the person that I am today. Cheers to the future!

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When the going gets tough, the tough get going…to the golf course.

It’s been a while since my last post. When I last wrote, I was talking about leaving my job and here I am two weeks later, free from that position. I wish I could say that the last two weeks have been busy and that’s the reason I haven’t posted but they haven’t. Instead, my mind has been cluttered and my body filled with so many different emotions. I’ve been feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. I know most of my feelings have to do with this big change I am facing but sometimes it is hard to remember.

The last few days I have woken up and my mind has instantly been flooded with thoughts. Did I make the right decision? What if I never find a job? Where should I look? What will make be happy? And the age old question – What do I want to do with my life?

Although I sometimes forget and question myself, the answer to the first question (did I make the right decision?) is yes! Even though I laughed at work and for the most part enjoyed the people I worked with, I wasn’t feeling fulfilled. When I would step away from my desk to go use the restroom, sometimes I would take a moment just to sit and step away from it all. There was so much chaos happening inside the office, I never had time to reflect on the way the work made me feel. These few seconds in the bathroom allowed me the opportunity to see how I truly felt about the work I was doing and I didn’t feel good. I didn’t feel passion or drive. This is how I knew this wasn’t the right place for me. When I start to second guess my decision I remind myself of this feeling.

These past 72 hours have been an emotional roller coaster. I have had to force myself (with the help of my boyfriend) to get out of the apartment and do something I enjoy. Playing golf has been my escape all summer and it was my savior this weekend. It has forced me to put away my cell phone, clear my head from all the clutter and focus on one thing only.



My golf game this weekend was a lot like life. I had some pretty bad holes and some pretty AMAZING holes, including a birdie. At the end of the day, I landed on my feet and pulled through. Each hole is similar to a new day. You have to start fresh. You can’t bring your negative attitude from the hole before to the next. Otherwise, you’re doomed to fail. There will be some big shots that get you where you need to be but its all about those small putting strokes that really land you in the hole.



My First Step in Taking Back Taylor

A big reason for starting the blog was my lack of happiness at my job. I needed an outlet, something creative and therapeutic. My blog has given me something to look forward to at the end of a long day and I am so grateful for that! After countless discussions with my family, I decided to take the leap and leave my job this week. I hadn’t been there very long, less than 2 months, so I know a lot of you are probably thinking that I didn’t really give it a chance. Maybe that’s true but, deep down I didn’t a passion for the work I was doing. This lack of passion, mixed with a somewhat unprofessional work atmosphere, pushed me to make this decision.

After graduating from the University of Colorado in May 2016, I’ve had a few different jobs. I began working for a large non-profit right out of school, then I worked with an interior designer and now with a large fashion company. It has taken this journey for me to realize where my true passion lies, non-profit development. There is no better feeling than connecting a donor with an agency in need or connecting a company with a cause where they are making a difference. It is an overwhelming feeling of gratitude and I have decided that I want to wake up each morning and go to an office where this is what we work to do.

My journey to this realization has been nothing short of difficult. I can’t tell you how many nights I went to sleep crying and mornings I woke up dreading going to the office but without these experiences I don’t think I would have learned all of this about myself.


I definitely could not have made it through this past year without my loving family, friends and boyfriend. But, there was one other crutch that helped and taught me more about myself than any therapist, friend or psychic could’ve even uncovered, a book titled “You are a Badass” by Jen Sincero. She helped me find the strength within myself to follow my heart, trust my gut, and (in the words of Jen) LOVE YOURSELF!

These are words I try to live by. Do I love who I am? Do I love how I treat others? Do I love how I treat myself? Obviously, life is always a work in a progress so the answers to these questions are not always “yes” but as long as I am taking steps towards creating that “yes” answer I truly believe I love myself!